Heran bgt herannnnn argggh
Hi Puans, please excuse me and my trashy language. I just need to rant and you guys seem hella open minded and cool. I feel strangely safe here.
Here we go. Anyone here currently unemployed? Cause I've been busting my ass trying to get a job for the past two months with no success. Ada yg karena gw overqualified, diluar budget, or simply ya ga sreg aja for no fucking reason. Also I just feel like it's a waste of everyone's time loh ga cantumin range gaji di job posting?
Most of my application berlanjut ke interview. A few interviews even. For some reason, udah 3x di ghosting even though aku followed up for the update. No replies. Trus ada juga yg ga kasih reason, they just simply chose the other candidate yg lebih 'cocok'.
At this point I feel like I'm having a crisis. Identity crisis? Quarter life crisis? Financial crisis? All of the above kayaknya.
Unemployment got me questioning my self worth. Am I not smart enough? Am I too honest? Am I too passive? What is wrong with me?
I mean I graduated with a Bachelor's degree dari university di luar negri. I'm pretty smart, I know I'm a good person, and I'm not ugly either.
What the flying fuck is wrong with me?
Stress bgt karena udah bingung harus gimana lagi. Sementara I need to feed my mom and send her money too. I'm an only child and my dad had passed. I've been working since I was 19 to pay for school and feed my mom but bruuuuhhhhh. How the fuck am I gonna send her next week? Tabungan udah abis and still unemployed.
I started selling my preloved Gucci shoes tapi ga laku omfg.
Also if you're wondering kok miskin tp punya Gucci dan sekolah luar negri? Ya dulu kaya.. trus jatuh miskin 😭
Perusahaan nyokap bankrupt karena abangnya yang heartless itu, dan a few years later bokap byebye. Utang yg ditinggalin bokap cukup banyak juga, I paid setengahnya slowly sejak umur 19 sampai sekarang. Masih ada setengah lagi. Don't get me wrong, I have the most amazing parents and I know they didn't see this coming. Utang juga bukan buat aneh aneh so I don't mind paying for it although legally bukan tanggung jawab gw. I just feel like I need to repay it somehow. Oh well. Gila loh, to see my life turned upside down since the day he died.
From being a student in university, to suddenly becoming the bread winner.
Dari bisa beli sepatu mahal, and now here I am pergi donor darah supaya dapet goodiebag dan makan gratis.
Anyway, this feels good. Thank you for allowing me to just be batshit angry here.