Recent dreams about alters
Im a traumagenic system with C-PTSD, Schizotypy and experience different degrees of dissociation (DPDR, Amnesia, Trace etc.). Id appreciate it if only folks with a similar background came to chime in about this if yall dont mind (since im too chicken to go to the DID and OSSD subreddits).
But yeah, Im just not sure what this means for us-? Like yes, my brain has been getting stupid weird elaborate dreams strangely ever since we got on Zoloft but aye I still get the occassional PTSD nightmares lol (where my abuser chases/hunts me down or I either get S/Aed even tho I have no historic evidence of such lol).
Then I had two recent dreams about my alters? Actually most of them I dont really recignized except one who wasn't that persistent in fronting.
But it was strange.
First dream I had involved me getting hunted down again by my abuser. Then apparently I realized I had dissociative fugue, unable to recall what I did during the day, how I got to a certain place. It felt so damn real lmfao it gave me an existential dread 😭 And when I got caught by my abuser, thats when I cut into 3rd person POV and a different alter took place. I dont really recognized who it was. They sounded familiar but not someone I knew of but they stood up against my abuser.
Second dream involved several (?) alters rapidly switching and gosh damn I felt so blurry amidst them all lol it felt more like I was watching them and myself (the body). Then a persecutor I dont recognized tried to attempt ***cough cough*** but failed, in the hospital, every visitor was met by a different alter. I felt more like a vessel to them during that time so yeah.
Maybe my brain is just too fixated lately since...Ive been a bit sweaty stressed about us...as a system. Im struggling to navigate on us, our trauma history, how being a system impacts our trauma recovery so yeah.
Id appreciate your thoughts and insights about this if you have any :" )
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