Lost in the windows of my own house
So I’m In a confused state of age **22** where idk what is going with my life, be it friendships and relationships, I’m not able to find the ground to stand, slowest poisons are always given by the admiring people in your life, I never tasted it romantically but my friendships are deteriorating and idk where and how I should stop caring so much, there’s so much to grow for me, but i don’t know if I’ll ever outgrow my problems and my overwhelming sadness of being left out. I want to ask everyone here, how are you keeping yourself independent and how to be that ? I’m so helpless, this is a call for help. I’m so alone in my head. I can’t just sleep around men who can’t care and try to hangout with people who aren’t there. I want to be alone and love myself but I’m too much of a coward to do that, I’ve always hated myself and idk how to forgive myself for doing that. Idk I’m losing all of it. Walls are just so suffocating