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in my mind, I know that’s it’s already a chapter that’s ended
in my heart though, it’s still struggling to get there

but it’s close

I had the weirdest dream about you.

It was so wrong. Even though it was earlier this morning, I still remember it. Normally I won’t remember much about my dreams unless I write about it as soon as I wake up but this one, I still remember even though the day is almost over.

So my dream. You were there. N was there. It was a party, sort of like an engagement party or something like that, on the night before your wedding. And I was invited. I was telling you guys I was happy to be there and I felt somewhat happy, though a bit guilty also but not exactly sad. When our eyes would meet, it’s short, it won’t linger the way it used to but we’d still lock eyes.

I don’t remember much of what happened in between. What I remember most is the end part.

I was going to the CR and when I got there, you just got out and we sort of freezed. As I went ahead, we bumped into each other and so I said excuse me and went inside.

However, that CR had a weird structure. Of course, it’s a dream so it won’t make sense but basically the CR had a door entrance but on the side, it was just open — no door or blocking like it was just facing the outdoors. And on the front part, there was a small window where there’s a view of the indoor/lounge area. And N was there talking to someone else.

Suddenly, you were heading my way via the side/open part facing the outdoors and when you reached me, you kissed me. Twice. It felt so real. But on the second kiss I was looking at N cause I was scared she saw but she didn’t cause she was busy. Then you smiled (i think) and I was surprised, then you went back inside and that’s when N noticed.

She went towards me and confronted me, saying if anything was happening between me and you, I should tell her. She was angry but not the scary kind. Instead, I sensed a sort of desperation in her voice. Like she was pleading with me to let her know so she could end her misery.

But I looked at her earnestly and told her that there’s nothing happening. I looked at her with sincerity and deep inside, that’s what I believed. Because what just happened (with you) was weird, surprising and unexpected. Something I didn’t see or think would happen. Then she let it go.

And that’s when it hit me, I still felt something when you did kissed me. Like it was a familiar feeling, something I didn’t realize I was missing.

Then I don’t remember if anything else happened next. I only remember waking up.

This is probably because of seeing you viewing my stories in FB. It’s been awhile and I’ve been fine since finding out you proposed to her. Then like a ghost, you were there. On the list of people who viewed my story.

I’d like to think I didn’t think much of it when I saw it. But maybe not. Subconsciously it stuck. And then I dreamt of you.