u/HelplessMoss

I relapsed last night because I was very stressed, and I fapped three times while watching porn. Then I slept. When I woke up, I was feeling horny again. I wanted to watch porn again. But instead of watching porn, I masturbated with my imagination. Because I wanted to avoid watching porn. Because I feel worse while watching porn than just masturbating. I still feel worse after masturbating as well because I want to practice semen retention as well, but I still did not watch porn. Do you guys think it's a better option to, once in a while, if I'm going crazy with the urges, just masturbate without porn?

I don't know how to understand this addiction. Every time I tell myself that I won't do it, and it's not even that hard to leave this addiction. But somehow I end up on Reddit, searching for porn and watching stuff. I end up relapsing, multiple times, in one sitting. I don't know what this is, how I should understand this addiction and how to actually get rid of it. I try everything. I go for a run. I read books. I try to be social. I try to do everything, but nothing works in my situation. I don't know what I should do.

I tried to look for patterns but in my case I dont have any sort of issues, not that I can think of, the only pattern in that I relapse often on weekends but it could be a coincidence too

I don't know how to understand this addiction. Every time I tell myself that I won't do it, and it's not even that hard to leave this addiction. But somehow I end up on Reddit, searching for porn and watching stuff. I end up relapsing, multiple times, in one sitting. I don't know what this is, how I should understand this addiction and how to actually get rid of it. I try everything. I go for a run. I read books. I try to be social. I try to do everything, but nothing works in my situation. I don't know what I should do.

I tried to look for patterns but in my case I dont have any sort of issues, not that I can think of, the only pattern in that I relapse often on weekends but it could be a coincidence too