u/HerBurnerAcc

A very condensed version of whats been going on:

F21. I’ve lived in this area about nine years now. I see the same kids every evening on their electric scooters. Out of the blue, one approached me and asked “did you just move here?”. No. I see you guys every day. I didnt think much of this interaction at all, but over these last two weeks, this group of boys have been flirting with me relentlessly. At first, I chalked it up to be that they’ve just become conscious or something lol, but the flirting has become constant and honestly, a little uncomfortable.

They’ve begun commenting on my body shape, even asking how many pounds Im losing and all this stuff. These kids are no older than… ten to thirteen, and they’re asking me about my calories and such.

I know this sounds benign, but it’s starting to get to a point where I avoid walking down that road, but I will see them ACTIVELY looking for me on their scooters.

It’s not that I feel threatened, I just want to stop any potential escalation. I don’t even know what specifically Im dreading, but it’s just this gross pit in my stomach.

I don’t know these kids’ parents or where they live, and so far nothing feels PARTICULARLY menacing, it’s just… constant. And Ive told them before that they are children, and Im an adult. But they don’t stop. Help??

i want to preface this by saying i may just be a little extra emotional today because of several piling factors (death by paper cuts situation), so this may seem a bit dramatic.

ive always noticed that no one reaches out to me first, but it’s recently really started hurting me. it feels as if i’m a burden to be friends with, or that it’s a chore to talk to me. im always overly receptive when my friends want to vent, talk about their interests, or just want a chat. but 9/10 times, it’s not reciprocated. im very often left on read/delivered, or ignored entirely by the other party going on about their thing instead.

i understand that people don’t spend every waking second on their phone, and life gets busy. but even when i dont have time, i make time because i love my friends and i cannot fathom ignoring them or going several days/weeks without communication.

im trying to give as much grace as i can, because maybe there are factors i havent considered or just don’t know about. im still hurt, though.

today these feelings are extra amplified since three of my friends all left me on seen. one of which i was expressing hesitance after my father (whom i don’t speak to) reached out to me. i had conflicting emotions and wanted to express that (we’ve been friends since middle school, this wasnt a random dump on an acquaintance). i was left on read. with my other friend, i was reaching out to check in on them since i haven’t heard back in a while. we’ve been best friends since kindergarten. i was left on read. the third im less concerned about since it’s a boy i’ve been on a single date with.

on top of that, my best friend forgets our plans despite planning for a month in advance, is often late or cancels entirely. it really really hurts. i feel as if people don’t care about me the same way i care about them.

im having a hard time articulating myself because i’m semi worked up about it, but i’m sure you get the gist.

i have talked about this before with the ones im closest with, but nothing changes. i love them so much, i dont want to give up on them.

i guess i just feel alone and not sure who to tell, so im telling you guys

Does anyone know any (preferably discreet) smoke spots in Lynnwood? I enjoy smoking outside but I’d like to avoid children and people if possible. Hoping to find a less occupied trail or something?