Stuttering as an Adult (Rant)
I always assumed my stutter would go away on its own when I grew up, but here we are and I still struggle ordering my food. The older I get the more I realize how debilitating my stutter is. I think it unfortunately taught me that there’s something inherently wrong with me and that I’ll never receive the respect I give other people. I also feel that my stutter has stolen my personality. I’m naturally curious about other people and want to engage in conversations but I avoid doing so to protect myself from judgement. Lately my stutter has been significantly worse since I just moved and am looking for new jobs. I felt like I had somewhat of a handle on it but now it’s rogue and I have no control. My dad was just telling me I need to figure out a way to deal with it and he mentioned that it’s difficult for interviewers to handle it and that really bothered me and I felt it was insensitive but in a way he’s right and I just feel so defeated. I’m sure many of you relate and I truly hope stuttering becomes better understood in my lifetime.