u/Historical-Sweet-776

I love kids. I’ve always wanted kids. I grew up in a big family, and couldn’t imagine my own life without them. 

But the pasts few years have made me rethink that. 

I had a dog,who was diagnosed with kidney dysplasia at 6 months old. There was no cure, just management and loads of anticipatory grief. 

I loved her so so much, and I was a fantastic caregiver. She taught me a lot. 

She died 2,5 years later. 

This experience absolutely ruined my mental health. I had to get EMDR therapy, take antidepressants and, still, the memories of all the doctors’ calls, etc are traumatic. Call me a pussy if you’d like, I don’t care. I just loved her so so much. 

And that was experience with a pet. 

I can’t imagine something like that lasting for years with a child. 

I know I would be a fantastic caregiver to a child with disability, but I think it would come at an enormous cost to my health. 

I think I could overcome the FEAR of it with a shitload of therapy, but I don’t think that my potential experience as a parent caregiver would get any better? 

hi everyone!

I will be traveling quite a bit this summer and I’m looking for a great foldable travel mat, that is grippy.

I bought the Manduka eko superlite but had to sell it, since it got super slippery 5 mins into my practice when my hands got a tiny bit sweaty. the mat felt super unreliable.

I‘m eyeing Manduka GRP adapt travel mat, or b mat traveller.

Any options on these mats or other recommendation?

thank you so much!

p.s. I don’t want to use a towel