u/Historical_Winner_52

So i read alot of top john fanfics and im tired of them. I need ones where Sherlock is top and i would prefer if it has some plot with enough chapters. Mainly on ao3

So i left school for some certain circumstances. Now i stay at home and do nothing. Its not a money problem. My family sends money. Its me. Every year i tell myself i will change because im a bit heavyweight. I wanna lose weight and start doing my habits. I wanna actually follow what i have decided. Every day i wake up, and do nothing. I only eat and im stuck on my phone. The night before i plan to do some exercises or take care of myself. Sometimes i don’t even apply skincare because i know there’s no one that’s gonna see me. If im only at home, what’s the point. And my dreams. My goal is to be a writer but i doubt my self and use ai to help me. I don’t want that. I know my dreams mean nothing to me because i don’t push forward to it. I wanna lose weight, get closer to Allah, finish my book and become a person who can help my mother. I am getting away from Allah and i wanna go back. People i have told im writing a book ask me every time and i feel ashamed. When i look at myself in the mirror, i hate the person staring back at me. I know i have to change or start somewhere but i just cant seem to do it. I have watched videos for having habits that change your life but i just cant seem to act on it.

By dark fic i mean anything, as long as mulder and Scully are not cheating on each other and are overly protective of each other. I prefer it completed but its okay if its not. Thank you