u/Holiday-Version-3212

I overheard my Mom on the phone call me and my cousins dumb for needing exact instructions. I don't know how many times I've explained to her that needing exact instructions is important to me as I struggle to assume what one wants. Currently I'm trying to study for a math placement exam and I've always struggled with math, especially if someone doesn't teach me step by step. So hearing her say that actually makes me feel so sad cause I try so hard to live up to her expectations. She's always telling me I just need to try hard enough to learn things but gets mad when I ask for precise instructions and tell her that I need help figuring things out. My day was going so good today too.

Edit: Guess I forgot to add that my inner critic always comes out trying to learn math. Im self teaching myself before getting into a math class. My Mom just says that stuff whenever I struggle to learn new things (especially ones she teaches me). Sorry, the post is a little all over the place.

2 years ago I met this girl that was an exchange student from Europe. I suddenly had a crush on her months after meeting her. I didn't try pursuing cause she was going back to her home country anyways. However I still like her. I am in contact with her through socials but I only text her like once a month and try to come up with interesting things to talk about (she answers everytime). She did mention that she's not in a relationship and hasn't really made it her priority anyways. It's so ridiculous that I still like her 2 years later. I shouldn't have a crush on her anymore but the way we interacted throughout those months was such a special moment for me it still lingers in my mind. I don't know if I should tell her what I've been thinking or just stay quiet and try to let it go. And even if I did tell her and by miracle she reciprocated the feelings, I don't know how we could make it work.