u/HolyCLover93

Not gonna lie, almost failed. I feel weird today, like my brain is frozen. Maybe i'm craving that constant dopamine im used to. Had very little energy, not to mention the lack of cigarettes is proabably starting to get to me aswell. I feel the urges coming back very strong today not in a way that im used to, i think thats what almost made me fail. It's now day 3 so i guess it's the height of my issues before things start to get better. Overall remained strong today, every day is just another test and even though i almost failed today, i'm still going strong. Going to do another challenge, staying up all night to fix my sleep schedule. I will update on day 4 about how that goes. Until then, to anyone reading and doing nofap STAY STRONG. You're supposed to be a warrior. dont forget why you're doing all this

I still remain keeping strong on my no fap and no cheap dopamine challenge. Today was a stressful day at work, even got sent home early for some bs. I was tempted to have a cigarette but i locked back in and remembered what im doing all this for. Speaking of, last night almost gave in to urges again but yet again i said no. I imagine the no fap will get easier as time goes on but the no smoking is what might get me. It will be fine though, the future keeps looking brighter if i keep on the right path. Everyday is merely another test from god and im tired of failure and excuses. For anyone reading, keep going strong. Keep remembering what you're doing all this for

I'm finally motivated to truly quit and stop giving in to my addictions. To keep everything true and honest i'll be writing every now and then for the whole internet to see. I've been a porn addict since i was about 11 and i honestly dont know if i'll say its ruined my brain but it's definitely made me weaker, probably the reason why im not tall, 100% reduced my testosterone and confidence alot.

This challenge also technically extends to all forms of cheap dopamine hits including short form content, smoking and everything else. I've done the nofap challenge before and i got up to about day 8 before i gave in. However, even in just 8 days i felt energized, clean and now its time to dedicate myself to improving yet again. To keep going on with the challenge this time i'll be taking it a lot more seriously by removing any possible triggers and i'll be writing here as often as i can.

I hope to gain more confidence, better sleep and get more control over my mind with doing all this. Gym has to become more consistent, i want to wake up feeling energized and the work i need to get done gets done. One thing i also want to track over this challenge is my chess rating, if it improves for the duration of this challenge then it'll be a sign of damage done by cheap dopamine. More than anything, time to stop giving in and be strong.

How do i get it to stop?

Month 3 of the end of the relationship and she still hasn't left my head. I see her everywhere i go, shes there when i wake up, when im at work, when im playing games, when im going gym she just wont leave me alone. Constantly replaying 24/7 everything that happened. Sometimes its so bad i cant fall asleep because i shes there when i close my eyes. This morning i was dreaming and then i woke up in a panic because she was there. I've never been like this before i dont know what to do at all, it's getting hard to keep progressing in life. I've been depressed my whole life but powered through, this is different though. I dont want to say im traumatised but it feels like it. How did i let someone fuck me up this bad.

I broke no contact twice (worst choice i made, could've atleast shown her i still had some self respect when i left). One a few days after i broke things off and all she said was "if its meant to be it'll sort itself out" After everything, thats all i got. I knew this girl since i was 15 and thats what i get. Second time i spoke more but folded and ended up bitching by sending paragraphs, then she got dry again. She knew how to play me perfectly, kept saying i love you and i miss you and i was falling for it, thinking theres still a chance. I hate her so much for that she was probably just laughing at everything.

I'm honestly an avoidant but for her i stopped it and decided to give my all into a relationship. Perhaps it was a mistake because i started to get abit clingy. In my defense, she was my only friend and she was starting to get distant (dry replies, barely replying, refusing to call play games or anything) and more than that i loved her so fucking much. My defenses were completely down i thought i was gonna die with her.

She was in my head 24/7 before the breakup once i started to actually fall for her. Everything i did was for her. All i wanted to do was work hard to put that ring on her finger and she abandoned me. The only thing thats helped so far is me just talking about it as much as i dont want to and i have nobody else to talk to about it this is probably the best place. any advice?

And in a way, i'm glad i did. It's probably the most difficult things ive been through. Her face is still there when i try and sleep, it was so bad last night i was too afraid to close my eyes. I have never loved anyone like i loved her and i probably never will again. I knew her since i was 14.
I've sent her paragraphs after the breakup, she said she misses me, she loves me. Bro, she was playing with you. Perfectly playing me to keep getting more. She sighed and laughed at all your cringy messages and paragraphs begging for her attention. She doesn't care anymore, shes gone, she does not care about you. She doesn't even respect you as a human anymore. I broke no contact, and she just laughed at my tears. As hard as it is, even i cant accept it yet, shes gone. One day shes there and the next shes gone. Heres my advice, put your love and care into the right places. Particularly family, close friends, pets and most importantly, yourself.
You can lose everything in a day.

If you ever have to ask for them to be there for you, to give you attention, to talk to you after all you do is care about them 24/7 then its not worth it. Don't paint red flags white. You're stronger that that bro. If you're going through a breakup right now then you merely fell over on the mountain you still have to climb. Your family need you. Your loved ones need you. You need you. and you want to stop everything and cry about someone that DOES NOT CARE ABOUT YOU.

You have to wake up. if you messed it up, then don't repeat the same mistake. If they messed it up, then they lost you. But never, and i mean never, break no contact.

I broke no contact when i was emotional. I'm sure she is now gone forever.