been watching porn since 4, and was sexually abused at 7. no matter what, i sexualize everything. i feel so gross and terrible. whenever i lay down or am bored i start to watch porn. idk what to do. i’m 20 now.
(20M) So I have a childhood friend named Bob (fake name obviously) and he invited me to this online sheree where there is a lot of people. Within a month we were all playing games together and laughing and joking around, and then this one girl joins the voice chat named Susan.
Susan starts talking about dresses and stuff, and basically starts explaining to me how dress sizes work and how bra sizes work as well (cause i didn’t understand it at all). Eventually, she talks to another guy in the server about what he thinks of her dress, and i’m assuming she sent him a pic of it, so I say “oh cool can I see too?” I believe this made her uncomfortable for some reason because she chuckled and was like “haha maybe if I know you a little longer, like 3 or 4 weeks.” I didn’t really pickup on this at the time but I was like “oh okay cool.”
A few hours later, I was removed from the server, and apparently everyone blocked me, even my IRL childhood friend, stating that I made her uncomfortable and shouldn’t have asked about her dress. AITA? I feel so bad. I didn’t mean to be weird or anything I was just curious. Everyone thinks i’m a weirdo now in that server. I don’t feel like I done anything wrong at all.
I’m 240lbs rn (really tall) and i’ve lost weight eating 3000 calories a day and then sunday I fast. Is this viable long term? I really never feel hungry except for sunday.