u/Honashot

Hello, I'm an artist who's absolutely failed.

I always post my art on every apps and all I got is Nothing. My art will and never reach someone's page. I tried to make new account and study how to become popular and anything but the results still be nothing. My friends started to forgot that I'm existed ( icl it's my fault, I'm not be active enough) Trying to improve my own skill and it's still stuck at the same

I always did the silence scream when I saw people blow up easily or If they give an advice because it's always doesn't work with me. I also tried to shut down my self because of the art.

The painful things is I want to quit art so damn bad, yet, I still come back.

I can't do anything better than drawing... Sigh... ☹️☹️ No matter how I try to start over, it falls apart like every time.

I only want 20 robux just to buy shirt and pants.

( my user is korekiyo_1456 )

Thank you!

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[Tw: mentioned violence, sexual, porn, drugs Drunk, suicide and bullying]

Why is my life has to be like this?

When I was born, my mom is already divorced with my ex. Dad who's drug addict. That's already worse and then when we spend a time in aunt's house, the aunt grab a knife and about to kill my mom. I'm crying so hard (I still being a child) when we move to another cousin's house, my mom always beat me to do things and scold at me, me in that time tried to Suffocated myself by strangling my own neck. It didn't work (I was still a child then, but I had heard stories of suicide from my mom) I give up. And in that time my 7 yrs cousin who addicted to porn are dragging me to bathroom and force me to do something with him but me in that time are so clueless so i decided to obey him, which make me feel guilty later.

When I move to new school, there's already a guy who dragging me and kiss me which it's so disgusting and my friends making a joke about it later. I was so sensitive in grade 5-6

When I'm graduated I have to move a house which no one ever say to me and I didn't prepare at all. It's make me confused and upset. I have to watch my friends Having party at cafe while me crying silently in car. After that, in april i have very bad mental health. My grandad (no, i won't fucking call him like that) that guy is drunk addict. He keep complain about me and my siblings and we can't do anything because he use violance. He locked me and hitting my head several times. We got this argument 3 times and I getting used to it (I'm also bored)

So, remember that 7 yrs guy? He's grade 2 rn but he's doesn't go to school.

In 28 October 2025, i have no internet that time and decided to take a shoes to go olay internet outside, he riding and see me wearing his shoes (i didn't know) he hit me at the back i was asking him ” why can't you speak nicely?! ” i repeats and he reply ” You curse my mom! ” i reply back ” that's not true! It was a misunderstanding, and I didn't do that! ” he hit my belly. It's was so fuckig pain!!!!!!!!!!! I was so upset. But i play the phone bext just to calm myself down. He's calling me to eat a food h mks, when i come back, i saw a place of dood sns s note ”sorry” my belly is so hurt i can't even eat. But i force myself snd then become quite to thinking what's going on. I recover all trauma i faced in confusion.

I swear I'm gonna hang myself