u/Honeydew-nessa

I don’t know why my brain works like this, but recently my best friend confided in me that she is struggling with food and starving herself, and it triggered me so badly. I have been struggling for a while but haven’t told anyone, and hearing that she has lost more weight than me makes me feel sick and twisted because I’m jealous of her. I’m so jealous, and it’s terrible. I’ve never been good with emotions and stuff, so it’s hard for me to comfort her when I’m struggling in silence with her. I love her with all my heart, but this jealousy is not good. I’m better now, I guess I don’t starve myself anymore but seeing her lose weight is making me want to be competitive, and I don’t know what to do how am i supposed to help her.

I don’t know why my brain works like this, but recently my best friend confided in me that she is struggling with food and starving herself, and it triggered me so badly. I have been struggling for a while but haven’t told anyone, and hearing that she has lost more weight than me makes me feel sick and twisted because I’m jealous of her. I’m so jealous, and it’s terrible. I’ve never been good with emotions and stuff, so it’s hard for me to comfort her when I’m struggling in silence with her. I love her with all my heart, but this jealousy is not good. I’m better now, I guess I don’t starve myself anymore but seeing her lose weight is making me want to be competitive, and I don’t know what to do.