u/Hopeful-Cod1861

I just had a GP appointment and asked if they could do my bloods for genderGP, I started testosterone two months ago with genderGP.. I've been on the gender waiting list for 5 years now and it'll be another 2 years before I get to the top of the waiting list. Before this I was in an abusive relationship and my partner forced me to come off testosterone because he didn't want his friends/ family to know he's bi. My GP knows about the abuse and sexual trauma I've been through and when I asked about doing the bloods she suddenly went very quiet and then basically said she doesn't think I should be on testosterone because of my sexual trauma... basically suggesting she thinks I'm not really trans I'm just traumatized and mentally ill.

I am most definitely trans, I had top surgery 3 years ago and it helped everything, I have been living as a man for 5 years now, and I just know deep within my core and have always known I'm a man.. I tried to explain that to her in the appointment but she said she "needs to speak to the partners" and she told me I have to get GenderGP to send her a letter about my care, so that the can contact them directly... I asked her if that meant she was going to stop my testosterone, and she said she doesn't know, she needs to contact GenderGP and the GP partners and make a decision.

I'm terrified. If my GP blocks my testosterone prescription from GenderGP then honestly I actually can't carry on with life I've barely got any hope after abuse destroyed my life and the only shred of happiness I had was finally starting testosterone again... I've waited years to escape this abusive relationship and finally go back to transitioning, and since I restarted T in the past couple of months I finally started overcoming my agrophobia a little and started running last week. I can't believe they'd take that away from me,

Does anyone have any advice or reassurances at all? I wish I hadn't asked my GP for the blood tests I feel so stupid.. maybe I could just ignore it and hope they forget? And pay for the bloods myself from gender GP and just hope they don't contact my GPs. I don't know what to do I'm so scared :'(

I just had a GP appointment and asked if they could do my bloods for genderGP, I started testosterone two months ago with genderGP.. I've been on the gender waiting list for 5 years now and it'll be another 2 years before I get to the top of the waiting list. Before this I was in an abusive relationship and my partner forced me to come off testosterone because he didn't want his friends/ family to know he's bi. My GP knows about the abuse and sexual trauma I've been through and when I asked about doing the bloods she suddenly went very quiet and then basically said she doesn't think I should be on testosterone because of my sexual trauma... basically suggesting she thinks I'm not really trans I'm just traumatized and mentally ill.

I am most definitely trans, I had top surgery 3 years ago and it helped everything, I have been living as a man for 5 years now, and I just know deep within my core and have always known I'm a man.. I tried to explain that to her in the appointment but she said she "needs to speak to the partners" and she told me I have to get GenderGP to send her a letter about my care, so that the can contact them directly... I asked her if that meant she was going to stop my testosterone, and she said she doesn't know, she needs to contact GenderGP and the GP partners and make a decision.

I'm terrified. If my GP blocks my testosterone prescription from GenderGP then honestly I actually can't carry on with life I've barely got any hope after abuse destroyed my life and the only shred of happiness I had was finally starting testosterone again... I've waited years to escape this abusive relationship and finally go back to transitioning, and since I restarted T in the past couple of months I finally started overcoming my agrophobia a little and started running last week. I can't believe they'd take that away from me,

Does anyone have any advice or reassurances at all? I wish I hadn't asked my GP for the blood tests I feel so stupid.. maybe I could just ignore it and hope they forget? And pay for the bloods myself from gender GP and just hope they don't contact my GPs. I don't know what to do I'm so scared :'(