Idk what to do
I’m a failure of a man I’m 24 wanted to be a fre fighter but told my anxiety it wouldn’t be a good fit with anxiety so heavy i can’t be in stressful situations like that it makes me gag like I’m throwing up and I can’t have fun without alcohol involved to take my mind off it I’m in a bad spot financially spiritually mentally physically and all I’m working on dropping weight I’m like 5’8 294 i got so much in my life going wrong parents and family wonder why I don’t go places with them or dinners get together or functions my anxiety just stops me completely I don’t got much my job doesn’t pa much I got no experience no degree my house about to cave in from roof damage I live with my parents I see it in their eyes they’re tired as well my girl just broke up with me I’m drunk while texting this or posting this I’m just tired ion wanna be here anymore idk what to do