u/HopefulHeart07

Fuck them. I hate that I will always remember them while they moved on. No closure. No last conversation. Just abandoning me like that despite all the good I had done which was also the real me. Not even a sorry for hurting my feelings in the first place which triggered me a lot.

Fuck my parents for cheating and having me without planning a family. Fuck my family for giving me the attachment wounds in the first place. Fuck them for even making me worse even though I’m a byproduct of their lack of love. Fuck them for treating me like a monster who doesn’t deserve love. Fuck them for taking advantage of me and my desire to feel loved and accepted in a home. Fuck them for abandoning me after I no longer wanted to be taken advantage of.

Fuck my friends who abandoned me at my worst. Fuck them for treating me like a monster. Fuck them for abandoning me when I needed them the most. Fuck them for retraumatizing me by excluding me because I had a bad day. Fuck them!

Fuck my ex for being a dismissive avoidant and playing with my feelings when I started to develop real feelings. Fuck him for being an asshole! Fuck him.

God can go fuck himself for making me like this! God has a plan? That’s fucked up. Why the fuck do I pray to someone who intentionally cause me to be like this? Fuck him!