My ex best friend is back but it feels like a one-sided friendship
Hey everyone 19(F) here. I was in this online group where i got friends with this one girl. it was going really well at first, i used to help her a lot with academics and it felt as if its a perfect friendship. Although, it wasn't going to last longer. This one day, where i was feeling a bit low, yk competitive exams, she calls me and asks me some doubts regarding studies, even tho i was very upset that day, i tried my best to help her. later by night i received texts from her saying that she doesn't want to continue the friendship and she wants to get few things out of her mind. i was shattered seeing that cause i was already having a rough day, she is a person who's very logical and practical like doesn't really get affected by emotions so i thought that she might have taken this decision carefully and i have had experienced an academic downfall because of such things already so i said okay and blocked her. i received texts from a lot of people conveying her texts to me, but i was mentally going through a few traumatic things at that time and i wanted to protect my mental peace so i didn't see them. when i got mentally stable again which was like a couple of months later ig i called her, i realised that i really loved her as my friend , she was not able to talk too cause we both were overwhelmed, she was facing some academic issues and was really about to get into depression and we had an exam like 4 days later. i tried my best to motivated her, she said that she loves me and is glad that we're back but soon we started having misunderstandings, i felt as if she's not really into the friendship, cause i loved talking to her but there was lack of communication from the other side like her texts were dry she barely called me on her own, said that she'd call me in 2 mins and never did and kept me waiting, i personally feel like this friendship is kinda against what i keep my friendship standards at. i'd listen to all of her hardships and would always try to motivate her but when i used to vent while i'm sad she always withdrew and doesn't show her presence when i need her. i've talked about it and she says that she doesn't like these formalities and that i'm an overthinker and an overexplainer and she said that she absorbs people energy really fast and so she doesn't like to stay in such situations while i adjusted with at first but i kinda realised that that's not what friendship means to me. To me its when you stay with them with their goods and bads. i once was feeling heavy and i told her that i would really appreciate more communication, and she said that can you for once not overthink , which really hurt me cause its dismissive. idk like i really like talking to her but she says that she has had friendships where they didn't talk for weeks but when they did again it feels the same, which i don't prefer myself. it feels like i'm compromising with expressing myself, idk please help me and tell me what to do. and i'm open to constructive criticism too so y'all please tell mw where am i going wrong and what shall i do