u/Horror_Armadillo8153

I had taken a before pic and now 6 ish months on T, I was literally like 🫪 when I compared to now. Cuz I don't love looking at them so I hadn't noticed or even expected them to get smaller. The papers I was given by my doctor at the clinic where I got my diagnosis explicitly said that testosterone does not affect breast size. At first I just noticed they're not firm anymore but can be fully flattened if I wanted to (it's painful but it works unlike before)

Before, the difference between bust and underbust was 12 cm, now it's 9cm. If I stand with my arms down, they used to cover quite a lot of my arm, now just a little bit because they don't flare out to the side so much lol. If I flex my back they don't break the silhouette at all. Now if I compress them just a little bit, they look like pecs, but shirtless I'd probably be fined if I was in a public space without, so it's not perfect but damn is this better than nothing.

Haven't lost weight at all.

Does anyone have experience with this? I have way too many health issues to handle a big surgery in the near future, if ever. Because of health issues, binding is also very painful. Sometimes I can wear a skintight top to very slightly flatten it, but even that triggers my GI symptoms. So, actual binders are hell. Tape doesn't flatten me (I've tried like 20+ times) and irritates my skin a LOT.

Luckily Finland is pretty cold so most of the year I'd be wearing a jacket in public, but it's going to be my first summer on T. My voice already passes, my face looks androgynous and I'm hairy. I really enjoy the sun so I want to go out a lot and wear at least t shirts, but I also like some women's clothes sometimes, like spaghetti strap tops. Even loose dresses. To a stranger I might come off as a trans woman, or just as a butch if I'm wearing men's clothes which I usually am. I don't trust I would pass as male. I'm binary but GNC because I think gender roles are stupid.

My underbust is 76cm and bust is 85cm, so EU sizes give me an A cup, but US sizes give me a D cup. So I have no idea whether this is at the border that COULD still be excused as gynecomastia. I've seen maybe one or two male-looking people in my life who have had a similar chest size, excluding obese people (I'm normal weight)

So. I'm kinda scared. If people clock me as trans, I wonder if it's safe to go out in Finland? I'd really love to not care and just wear whatever and go to the beach and everything, T has helped with my dysphoria and energy levels so much. But with all these violent far right people in the news lately, and social media comments, I'm worried I'd get hatecrimed and should just either suffer from severe flare ups from binding, or from the heat from wearing too much layers.

Replies in English or Finnish are okay.