u/HostSpiritual1804

Full disclosure, I am not diagnosed with BPD, however, i've had numerous ppl tell me i exhibit a lot of the symptoms, and when looking at my behavior when im unmedicated, i see it to.

I (M19) am currently in a new relationship, and yesterday we had a minor incident that left me feeling quite hurt and as if i was an afterthought (typical fear of abandonment stuff), and i became a little snarky. It did not turn into a full on argument or anything like that. My gf (19F) said she was taken aback by the snarkiness but is not at all upset and she understands why i was hurt.

However, i'm still really embarrased by the whole ordeal and a bit disheartened that, despite all the mountains of effort i put into self improvment, the emotionally manipulative, insecure snake is still deep in my psyche, and going forward i want to do everything i can to keep that snake in check.

Any and all advice, tips, and personal antedotes are welcome :)

(repost cuz i started immaturely ragebaiting in the comments and deleted after i got embarassed 😓)

TL;DR I realized my gf feels genuinly comfortable around me and trusts me with her bodily autonomy enough to be vunrable around me. I'm incredibly honored and I know i'm doing something right but I don't exactly know what im doing right.

After more than a year of being single for self growth and reflection I (19M) recently matched with my girlfriend (19F) on Hinge. One of the first things she said to me after we started talking was "you're cute, but i don't really trust men very much"

The other day she asked me if i wanted to watch a movie, i said yes, and after a while of scrolling she found a show she likes. I quickly realize it's not really my type of show so i settle down and kind of half watch half cuddle. At some point i ask her if she wants to make out, she thinks abt it for a sec before saying she's invested in the show and really wants to keep watching, i don't think much of it snd go back to cuddling & watching the show.

Shortly after that i must've dozed off because the next thing i remember is being woken up to her moving around and wrapping herself completely around me and snuggling her head into my chest.

Later that night she takes me to her bedroom for some adult fun ;). After the adult fun had run its course she once again wraps herself completely around me and lays her head on my chest. and in that moment I realize that I have a buttass naked woman happily dozing on top of me without a care or worry in the world. I also become very aware that this is an immensly vunrable/potentially scary situation for her to be in.

I don't think I've been doing anything particularly special, but if i am i want to know. Im posting in the hopes that the women on here see something i don't.