Now I’m 16 turning 17 and am gay and a guy and am an secret closeted atheist and am forced to attend church every week twice a week, my parents are both heavily involved in the church and that’s not bad in hindsight but our church is basically a cult. Like I don’t believe in any of it and I’m just so fucking tired of my family bc they take it too far and are extremists, they tolerate me being gay but don’t actually accept it or support me, they constantly make homophobic jokes towards me like oh haha ur so gay and call me offended when I act upset abt it, everything is framed as worldly and demonic and spiritual warfare this and that, my parents are constantly blasting gospel music and on top of that they’re just terrible people, I’ve been isolated and abused for years severely. And I’ve tried going to cps but my parents retaliate every time w violence and abuse and threaten to abandon me, they’re always following what the fucking pastor says and say they don’t cuss but say damn, hell, ass and the n word w the hard r and my siblings use the hard r (we’re Mexican) I don’t say it, and whenever my mom hears me say “shit” or “fuck” she freaks out and acts like i shot her or smth, they’re both EXTREMELY CONTROLLING AND ABUSIVE, HELP For more context, refer to these posts
I desperately need help and if anyone has advice on how to get out of this cult and stay out. I love you and hope u have an amazing day!