u/Hot-Taste-4652

I've been on meds now for roughly 2-3 months, and I first tried methylphenidate extended release (Ritalin), 10mg, 20mg, 30mg and finally 40mg. Didn't really feel anything nor notice any effects or improvement.

I was recently switched over to lisdexamphetamin (Balidax) 30mg. And I still feel nothing, nor do I notice any effects ot improvement.

I've read a lot that you need to take your time to find what works for you and so on, but the fact that I don't notice any improvements or let alone feel the effects of the meds in any way really makes me lose hope that meds will ever work for me.

I've read about alexithymia, and I can relate a good amount to it. A lot of the time, I have no idea what I'm feeling, or why I'm feeling that way. I have many times tried to hyper-analyze my internal states, trying to feel and notice the difference in these states what these states are, but I never really confidently figure out what they are, what I can say with confidence is that they feel and are different, and changes my behaviour.

I just feel that my experience doesn't map cleanly onto alexithymia, which is making me conflicted