u/HotWelcome6984

I’m 13 and I’m lesbian I haven’t come out to my dad about it and I have only come out to my mom as not straight but I have a problem cause I’m doubting myself
I’m gonna do two parts one that could say I’m straight and one that says I’m gay

Straight
I find boy’s attractive there look doesn’t arouse me but I find some of them cool looking, aesthetically pleasing or just genuinely attractive there usually all queer and feminine
I feel like it’s wrong to be lesbian
I’m not the most cuddly lesbian and I would like to kiss or cuddle a bit but I don’t want to full on cuddle
I might have sex with a woman but I don’t know if I would practice it as often
I’m very doubtful about my sexuality
My brain tries to convince me I’m straight
I find some cartoon men attractive or I just want to be them I don’t know
I usually gets obsessed with men or just boys in general in my cartoons and have a deep love and appreciation of there character some of them I feel like is my family and if I look up to someone in a cartoon they might have a big chance of being a man because I usually think there super cool
I feel in love with a straight girl two times though one time I didn’t know if they where straight I just assumed
I did not have a crush on my closest friends Ada child might be because I did not have any(lol)
My first crush on a girl was at the age of eleven(I’m saying this because Ik there’s a lot of people out there who had when they where like five but I guess I just wasn’t that into the idea of that when I was five)
I had a crush on a guy from the age of eleven to mid twelve
I have this weird feeling when ever I see someone of male kind and it’s almost everyone and usually if I lock eyes with them and I don’t know if it’s attraction cause I get it even if I think there super crusty or ugly and it’s like the feeling of butterflies and then a feeling or nausea and then a pushing on my lungs or even a pit in my stomach
My brain tries to convince me I’m straight
I once saw a guy from a circus a month ago and thought damn he looks really good and then I would walk up to him and he would look ugly and I lost interest
I wanted the guys to like me
I was kind of a pick me as young
I wanted a boyfriend as young I just had really high standards
I had a girl In my class come out to me
I find girl on the internet attractive but they don’t give me an immediate big arousel I just think like omg they’re super pretty
I though ace from Pokémon was super cool and sometimes I would pretend he was my boyfriend and we would travel the world together and become Pokémon masters
I’m on board with some straight ships like rayla and callum and hanako and nene and hunter and willow and hiccup and Astrid
I did not love lumity right away
I never really liked YURI in medie but when I do I ship hard core
I get these weird obsessions with people and it’s usually with guys where I think there soooooooooo cool and I put them on a pedestal

Lesbian
Girls are pretty boys can’t ever be pretty
I remember being young and thinking it was such a shame girls had to like boys cause girls where so much prettier
When I played with Barbie’s they wold never end up with ken he would always die or turn out to be evil or he would die brutally sometimes he would have an evil twin kills him I don’t know why and then the Barbie’s would kill the twin and the two girls would live together as “besties”
I once saw a girl on the internet in a video and she blinked and I I was like omg omg she winked at me guys SHE WINKED AT ME AHHHAH
I got a weird feeling watching total spice
I was never a girlie girl
I hated make up
I watched in a heartbeat and imagined that that could be me with a girl and I was like me Likie
When I was bi I would always be with a woman in my future
The guy I had a crush one was more a version of him in my head an I would have never dreamed about having a crush on him if it weren’t for my friends being like you two would be so cute together
I liked the attention of having a crush more than my actual crush
When he turned me down in front of the whole school I w cared mor e about my ego than him but I just got rejected by a straight girl yester day and I’m still crushed
I fall hard and fast when I fall for girl
I watched the one episode of the last of us with Ellie and her girlfriend and lumity and I fell really seen
Women are magical and have so much personality
I once heard a guys get called beautiful and I was like wait a damn minute boys can’t be beautiful
I see straight people in public and get the ick or just think teh girl is wasting her potential with a man
I always hated boys and they always hated me
I have loads of queer friends
When my family asked if I got a boyfriend or my future would be with a man I would get uncomfortable
I girls are pretty
I am afraid of finding out one day I am straight and I’m afraid of spending the rest of my days with a man
I only liked to talk about boys because It felt a bit over my boarder and wsometimes I like that and I would only a talk about it to get attention or fit in
I just said I never had a crush cause I didn’t or atleast not in boys
I would never understand the girls when they talked about they’re boyfriends but I forded my self to do it
I fosed attraction
I didn’t really care for my crush other than a friend a god one but only a friend
I get the ick of seeing my friends in straight relationships and I though it was because I was jealous
I tried to simp for cartoon men because that was the only men I found remotely attractive but it never came naturally
I did all the thing you where supposed to do when having a crush because you where supposed to it
In the past I would eithe always lose attraction for them if I would get to know theyre personality or just find them crusty
I feel uncomfortable when someone confessed to me a boy obviously
Kissing a man sound crusty
I could never have sex with a man I think I would lose the will to live if I where to end my days with one
I would never raise a family with a man
I’m afraid of ending up with one
If I have a fantasy about relationships it’s always with a woman
I did not care for the boy I crushed on but the girl I loved her she was so dang cute and hell was she beautiful no gorgeous and I could listen to her talk forever I really loved her and Im sad she didn’t love me but I respect it and her man Bette respect or I’m gonna do something I won’t be proud of I really did love her and I hope she has a wonderful life and Ik life goes on but for now I’ll dwell in my pit of a stomach a bit longer
I’ve never had a crush on a boy if it weren’t for my friends gaslighting me into thinking we would be cute but when I was done having a crush on him damn I went back to hating him

Also I hope to get a girlfriend even though I might be asexual and I’ll love her with all my heart

So what do you guys think am I lesbian or bi no or a trans straight dude I don’t fucking know man

Also forgot to add that I always felt weird being in the women’s locker like I didn’t belong there