Feeling Stuck
So, this might be a long one so buckle up
I (26F) am so lost and I think I just need some advice.
For the last 2 years I have been trying to become a plumber. I have been working as a Pharmacy Technician for the last 8 years. I have worked retail, outpatient and in the hospital and I just hate it. At one point I finished my prereqs for nursing and I just couldn't stomach the idea of becoming a nurse. I just knew it would take a mental tool on me. I just hate healthcare in general and I'm so tired. Especially after working during COVID, it has just killed any of my desire to continue working in this environment.
I worked on passing my aptitude test and eventually secured an interview at the union that's near me. The first interview I got mad and yelled and the second interview I tried to keep my cool but ended up fumbling (literally it was pathetic I was stuttering horribly). I was told I should look into other trades instead, but I really want to do this one for some weird reason idk it's like calling my name.
After the second interview I sort of fell back into the mindset of well healthcare isn't the worst I could go back to school and push and become a pharmacist. I know that Im smart enough to do it but I just hate it. Im in school right now and Im just so blank.
I think I know that it is either keep pushing through school and become a pharmacist or make a drastic life change and work in a different trade and reapply to the union after a couple of years. I'm just scared either way. I think Im scared to be uncomfortable and nervous that I could make a mistake. I'm not really proficient in tool use but I thought the whole point of working in the trades was to learn how to do the job, right?
I'm sorry if this post sounds like a bunch of word salad. I'm frustrated with myself because I know what I need to do but it's just hard and Im worried.