u/HuddledFun

For context, my fiancée and I have been dating since February last year. Engaged since my birthday in March. He is to put it mildly the love of my fucking life. This is the most comfortable, pure, emotionally mature relationship I've ever been in. People swear we've been married years already because of how much we get along and how affectionate and in-sync we are. This obviously contradicts the title you just saw above so let me add a little more.

I was promoted back in February at my work as a financial advisor. It's been incredibly rewarding work and my fiancée was truly my biggest cheerleader through my studying to pass the licenses/certifications required for this role. The caveat of this is that I have been extremely busy at work and have spent a lot of time focusing more on my job as a result. This has led to me feeling not as connected w my fiancée as I'd like. We still get along so well and love each other dearly, we just obviously want more time to enjoy with each other.

Recently I was able to take a little over a week off to fly us down to Orlando to visit Disney/Universal. We actually did this in February to celebrate my promotion (even got to spend Valentines Day at Disney), but this trip felt deeply different to me. We weren't there celebrating some specific event or milestone, nor there out of some obligation (i.e. we visited my future BIL/SIL in Vegas last month for Memorial Day, also great people/time). We were just there and had so. Much. Fun. Together. Like two teens in the honeymoon phase, riding all the best rides, having one too many drinks around Epcot, endless photobooth pics to hang on our wall, still catching Love Island every night at 835 while waiting in lines. Everything we would've wished for.

Then the inevitable plane ride home this morning. I partly blame this on the 2.5 hours of sleep and us walking a solid 40-50 miles over 10 days in 100 degree Florida heat. We get to the gate and are talking a little bit about the trip and our favorite/least favorite rides while watching old Simpsons episodes waiting on our 530am flight. Then we hear "Free Falling" by Tom Petty playing in the airport. I immediately start welling up and we end up heading to the restroom to cool down. At first thought it was just post-vacation blues, cried it out a bit and recouped at the gate.

Them about an hour before we landed, I start welling up again. Same routine as before, hit the bathroom to cool down. When I come back though the tears come right back again. Thankfully only him and I in the row, so only he witnessed my full-blown meltdown sobbing fit as I sat down (god bless being taught to be a quiet crier lmaoo).

I realized at that point that it wasn't necessarily the vacation that I missed or that I have work tomorrow morning (though both thoughts obviously hit). It was the fact that I had just had the most amazing week with my future husband, my rock, my entire heart, and I realized how much I'd been neglecting our relationship by not being able to spend more time with him like this. We both ended up having a heart to heart, him promising he'd do everything to make sure we kept this fire alive, me promising to be more present.

But what's the best way to do this? I've been crying off and on all day long worrying about it, feeling awful for how away I've been these past few months, having severe separation anxiety like I had when I was a little kid away from their mom. We have such a great connection, so many things in common, and I just feel awful that I haven't done enough to take advantage of that recently.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated, very emotional and weird post I know but I'm just very emotionally devastated right now and just want to make things right with him, however I can

For context, my fiancée and I have been dating since February last year. Engaged since my birthday in March. He is to put it mildly the love of my fucking life. This is the most comfortable, pure, emotionally mature relationship I've ever been in. People swear we've been married years already because of how much we get along and how affectionate and in-sync we are. This obviously contradicts the title you just saw above so let me add a little more.

I was promoted back in February at my work as a financial advisor. It's been incredibly rewarding work and my fiancée was truly my biggest cheerleader through my studying to pass the licenses/certifications required for this role. The caveat of this is that I have been extremely busy at work and have spent a lot of time focusing more on my job as a result. This has led to me feeling not as connected w my fiancée as I'd like. We still get along so well and love each other dearly, we just obviously want more time to enjoy with each other.

Recently I was able to take a little over a week off to fly us down to Orlando to visit Disney/Universal. We actually did this in February to celebrate my promotion (even got to spend Valentines Day at Disney), but this trip felt deeply different to me. We weren't there celebrating some specific event or milestone, nor there out of some obligation (i.e. we visited my future BIL/SIL in Vegas last month for Memorial Day, also great people/time). We were just there and had so. Much. Fun. Together. Like two teens in the honeymoon phase, riding all the best rides, having one too many drinks around Epcot, endless photobooth pics to hang on our wall, still catching Love Island every night at 835 while waiting in lines. Everything we would've wished for.

Then the inevitable plane ride home this morning. I partly blame this on the 2.5 hours of sleep and us walking a solid 40-50 miles over 10 days in 100 degree Florida heat. We get to the gate and are talking a little bit about the trip and our favorite/least favorite rides while watching old Simpsons episodes waiting on our 530am flight. Then we hear "Free Falling" by Tom Petty playing in the airport. I immediately start welling up and we end up heading to the restroom to cool down. At first thought it was just post-vacation blues, cried it out a bit and recouped at the gate.

Them about an hour before we landed, I start welling up again. Same routine as before, hit the bathroom to cool down. When I come back though the tears come right back again. Thankfully only him and I in the row, so only he witnessed my full-blown meltdown sobbing fit as I sat down (god bless being taught to be a quiet crier lmaoo).

I realized at that point that it wasn't necessarily the vacation that I missed or that I have work tomorrow morning (though both thoughts obviously hit). It was the fact that I had just had the most amazing week with my future husband, my rock, my entire heart, and I realized how much I'd been neglecting our relationship by not being able to spend more time with him like this. We both ended up having a heart to heart, him promising he'd do everything to make sure we kept this fire alive, me promising to be more present.

But what's the best way to do this? I've been crying off and on all day long worrying about it, feeling awful for how away I've been these past few months, having severe separation anxiety like I had when I was a little kid away from their mom. We have such a great connection, so many things in common, and I just feel awful that I haven't done enough to take advantage of that recently.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated, very emotional and weird post I know but I'm just very emotionally devastated right now and just want to make things right with him, however I can.