Living with the guilt that I might have given my boyfriend chlamydia
I’m crying typing this. I finally worked up the courage to get tested for everything after six months of constant worrying. I don’t have my results yet. But I just feel like it’s going to be positive. We are each other’s first full sexual partners. The only way I could have gotten and given him chlamydia is through a fingering incident two years ago—yes, I’m aware that while it’s rare, that it could lead to a chlamydia infection. I feel so stupid. I genuinely didn’t know I had it if I gave it to him. I didn’t think I’d have to worry about this because I don’t remember any fluid, but it seems like the one thing that could have happened.
The reason I’m worried is because in January, we went to the urgent care with testicular pain that came and went with physical activity. He didn’t have any swelling or redness, but he had tenderness on both sides, which they diagnosed at the urgent care as epididymitis (bilateral). They asked if he had been sick recently, to which he replied he had a sinus infection. They chalked it up to that causing the pain, but I can find no evidence of that happening online. The closest thing I can find is about mumps, which I really don’t think he had. They didn’t test him there, but they have him doxycycline for the sinus infection according to his notes. Not even for the supposed Epididymal tenderness. He did go back about a month later for something else and requested an STI test because he knew I was so affected by it. It came back negative. HOWEVER, he had five days of doxycycline for the sinus infection, which I know also just happens to be what wipes out chlamydia.
Sorry for the long post. I recognize that I’m so dumb. I didn’t have any sexual contact until I was like 30 (the manual stimulation) and didn’t think anything of it. I know that my boyfriend is supposedly free of it now if he had it, and that it’s just an antibiotic to treat it. But I still feel such guilt.