Any one in the same boat?
I have had 4 ERs, have had different protocols and incredibly hard to get mature eggs, fertilization rate is ok, low embryo rate and low euploid rate. I have 1 euploid from 4 rounds( got 1 embryo each round so 3 were aneuploid). I’m very grateful for the one I have.
I’m 35, good blood work, low estrogen in stims but normal in regular cycles. I’ve done HSG (normal), hysteroscopy ( normal biopsy) and I did a blood test for endo that came positive since I didn’t want to do receptiva. I have no symptoms but yet have endo. I immediately went on a diet, trying to limit insulin spikes, lower carbs, low fat ( found out I have super high cholesterol in the process). I’m normal BMI but feel like everything is being taken from me. I can’t even eat what I love anymore. I am making my food tasty still so I’m not that miserable about the food.
I’m doing lupron supression for 2 months along with letrozole and doxycycline starting next week. I ovulate very regularly and it was the one thing I knew was working for me. Now because of lupron supression I’ll be doing a medicated transfer. I just wanted to come on here and rant. This has been years in my life and I am numb with a deep sadness in my heart. I’ve been working and going on vacations to distract myself. I am focusing on eating fiber and will start working out. I cannot give up but giving up seems like a dream right now. To just let my body be broken and just retire and live in a cheap country and not have any responsibility. I know I can’t run away but I have been fantasizing about it.
I’ve taken all the supplements, tried red light therapy, NAD IV, NAD and glutathione injections, acupuncture, extensive blood work, prayers, manifestation. I’m tired, all my efforts seem to not matter.