Toxic nostalgia feeling... Years ago, I moved from one country to another, and now I miss that place a lot
I am M, 36, from a relatively mid/poor European country, let's call it A.
Not going into too many details... Years ago, I lived, studied, and worked in country B. After around 5 years, I went back to country A. I bought my own flat, have a wonderful boyfriend, and my life is fine (I have some problems with my mental health, but they're unrelated to the subject).
However, even after being back in country A for 5 years now, I still miss the other one like crazy. Especially the city where I lived (obviously?). I remember so many details- going shopping, working a bad job, evening walks, but more than anything, I guess, the feeling that I'd become someone better and richer.
Now, where I am, I feel like life won't become much more than it is. Somehow, the magic is lost.
I am not entirely sure if it's because I moved away. Maybe my brain is idealizing the country where I lived. But I don't want to feel this nostalgia anymore.
I guess I don't know what am I really asking. Maybe just wondering how to fight a feeling of nostalgia and sadness.