u/IDabFast

Sorry if this is an annoying spam question lol that isn’t meant to be the case. And to be clear, I’ve still been climbing. So I’m not like TILTED or anything about this.

I recently returned to OW, started in 2016 and got some thousands of hours on it. And wow, this season has been super rough. But beforehand, I felt like it was totally fine. I just seem to be getting a lot of players that seem very new to the genre, even in plat (I climbed from silver when I returned to OW, was diamond/master in OG OW). Like not retreating, feeding, not grouping up. Just like very fundamental things.

I’m very much a “what could I do better?” player, even if a teammate could be doing better. Whatever yk. It’s still totally possible to win. But man, it’s impossible to win if your teammates don’t know like the fundamentals. I’m still winning more than losing but I’d rather losses feel a little close rather than just a complete curbstomp.

Hi! So I have many issues in my life. severe adhd tends to be the sort of ringleader.

I’ve tried to address these issues in so many ways. So so many ways. So many times. For years. I won’t get super specific because they range in scale from working out consistently to managing severe adhd symptoms to better skincare. And every single time, without fail, it typically comes back to setting up habits and routines. The one thing that I just absolutely can’t do. It doesn’t help that I am in-between traditional jobs right now so my schedule isn’t exactly fixed. But it was an issue even when I wasn’t between jobs and when I was in school. Same exact issues.

I’ve tried to set reminders, I’ve tried post-it notes, whiteboard on the wall, planner, alarms, daily to-do list for a routine, etc. idek what else I could add.

My problem is always memory… I think, I guess I don’t know if that is the label I would use. But I haven’t been able to change my habits for YEARS because of this. The good and the bad ones.

Most of them die within a couple days. I’ve stretched out some routines for maybe a week or two. I think the longest I’ve developed a habit/routine I wanted was I worked out for a month or so. Typically something throws it off. Could be something major in my life. Or I just missed my morning routine one too many times and have now forgot about it entirely. Maybe I saw a reminder too many days in a row and my brain just began filtering it out. Variations of those happen every. single. time.

At this point, I’ve really just lost hope. This is like the foundation for even beginning to work on myself and I simply cannot do it. I’ve even tried therapy and meds. They both assist with certain things but this never improves. Does anyone have any possible suggestions at all? I know the odds are low considering the bare minimum has not worked for me but idk. Worth an ask. Thank you.