I have been feeling burnt out for many years, Need a movie where the whole premise is around burn out and burnt out ppl. I really need to see how to cope with it and move ahead.
Don't worry Im taking medical help, this is not a substitute for it. I just want some motivation, real life example if possible, so that it can aid me to come out of this situation.
Hello there. A month back I made this post, which Dr K discussed on his stream, under the title 'Hard work is not enough'.
https://www.reddit.com/r/Healthygamergg/s/TbXBx2YW4L
I did soul searching and this is what I want to be. Recently came to knew about Ivy league college's, and whom they select, and why they want more traumatized people as they can do stuff, normal and secured people can not, and how most leaders today are from Ivy leagues. This is also something Dr K has already discussed in one of his videos, that u need to broken in a correct way, to achieve astronomical success.
Turns out, my greates desire is to be taught the ways of being success. Just being a robot, a computer, and being fed all the necessary trauma, perspectives, skills and everything, into me. That is why I was disappointed in my hardwork, cause I wanted to be TRAINED AS A HUMAN MACHINE, that just does it stuff and goes back to dust when it stops operating. This thing, is obviously not possible as I'm not the rich who gatekeep 'The Things' from the masses, and that made me hate everything around me including me and I tried to keep myself in trauma, but without resources that didn't work. I'm aware it's all ego, but I can't just detach or control it.I don't care about anything, just want the success, but that does needs a personality and resources
It is dark and I can't deny this aspect of mysel. I can discuss this here as it's a safe community. It's hard for me to make peace with it, the only thing that can help me is either I become this, or I forget this part of my ego, living with this kills me everyday. As I know that I'm capable of being this machine, given the right input and fodder to my brain.
I DON'T WANT TO LIVE A NORMAL PEACEFUL LIFE, I WANT DEATH BY MERITOCRACY.
Hey, I am the person here, who posted weird memes, with wojaks and texts. I have been addressed by Dr k in 2 videos, and I genuinely thank him, and this community. I had bad panic attacks, and had serious life death situations, so it really broke my ego. I'm fine, nothing to be so worried, but only my life decisions and thinking
I'm 24, not a problem with childhood, no trauma but my thinking is the reason for my shit life, and it's still not that shit. All these wasted years and also in the school days, I always wished I was a genius, wished things were effortless, which hardly happens with anyone, so you can call me dumb enough. What I thought it as, there are some brains, where stuff enters pretty swiftly, while I personally felt it was hard to do that. I did great academically, but always was concerned that I'm never gonna reach the scientist level, that was my standard.
All these wasted years, I was wishing, that my hidden genius, or in some way, the brain configuration changes and didn't worked towards a career. It was all for protecting my identity. It breaks my heart that how much have I missed and lost just in that belief, that I'll find a way where my mind would be effortless, cause to a kid brain, scientist stuff looks pretty genius level and effortless, which I still think is pretty true.
I'm ruining my life being in this belief and seriously it's causing me issue. I know genius doesn't manifest in one day, if u understand something, u do, if u don't then u don't, I still have gas to waste my life, but I wish to stop this cycle.
The ego death panic attack, helped me to know this, but it happened but it's life who is teaching me, and in this way I'll ruin my all opportunities.