u/I_Cant_Snipe_

I always think everyone is lying to me, they always a have a ulterior motive. That people lie to me and just wanna use me and will dump me. That is why I just avoid people, even my very good friends I think that they are using me and can betray me at any point.

I had a irresponsible alcoholic father, and a good mother who cared for me etc. but she was never emotionally unavailable and used me as a emotional punching bag and I have a brother but my parents always made me and my brother have competition and siding with one etc. so we don't get along each other. (I live with my brother and mother now)

I am trying to get a girlfriend but I just cant talk its insane, am like 5'11 and am I am lean and muscular and I would say at least decent looking.

I try so hard to have some cope like god exists, everything is pre destined etc but my shitty logical mind never lets me believe in that, I am an INTJ so maybe that's because of that due to this I blame no one except myself.

Honestly I just want someone I can talk to but idk what sort of person would that be, I might be going insane but I am good in studies and other things of lives I am just a terrible peoples person. I am 21 Male if that matters.

I always think everyone is lying to me, they always a have a ulterior motive. That people lie to me and just wanna use me and will dump me. That is why I just avoid people, even my very good friends I think that they are using me and can betray me at any point.

I had a irresponsible alcoholic father, and a good mother who cared for me etc. but she was never emotionally unavailable and used me as a emotional punching bag and I have a brother but my parents always made me and my brother have competition and siding with one etc. so we don't get along each other. (I live with my brother and mother now)

I am trying to get a girlfriend but I just cant talk its insane, am like 5'11 and am I am lean and muscular and I would say at least decent looking.

I try so hard to have some cope like god exists, everything is pre destined etc but my shitty logical mind never lets me believe in that, I am an INTJ so maybe that's because of that due to this I blame no one except myself.

Honestly I just want someone I can talk to but idk what sort of person would that be, I might be going insane but I am good in studies and other things of lives I am just a terrible peoples person. I am 21 Male if that matters.