I need help from people in similar situation.
How can i(m) middle aged, not from US, get out of being broke while being mentally ill, 0 skills, suffering from social anxiety and being brain damaged from using hard drugs from an early age, currently almost 10 years clean. I just don't know, currently i'm being kept alive by old family members and every day is a chore to just to take care of myself, my memory and concentration are at probably schizophrenia levels. I had all kinds of therapies and meds for years but they just mask the problem and gave me a lot of weird shit second side effects that were so bad in themselves. I used to go to AA and NA and they helped a lot but the social pressures were hard to go through so i kept it only for maintenance for my addiction disease. I just hate it so much being me, i feel just like piss in the wind without anything to do about it but just barely living until this is shit life is over with. I have to carry this shit forever without anyone understanding what it feels like. I couldn't even do what my therapist asked me to do, basic stuff. Everything just feels so hard to do. Does anyone relate to this? I don't know how to get out of this shit, it ate my life for too many years. Thank you for reading until the end.