23 yr desi female scared to move out of parents house
I have a master's degree and a full-time job. It's got ok pay, but not what my parents expected me to make after getting a degree in a subject they hate but still financially supported. I've been meaning to move out eventually, but the problem was I ended up really liking my job and the people I worked with; on top of that, my parents' house is about a 10-minute drive from the place. A colleague of mine, with whom I get along, mentioned she was also trying to move out, and that she had found a place that had literally everything I was looking for AND that is in my budget! It's a 30-minute drive from work, but aside from that, everything else is pretty good, and the third roommate is also super sweet! Growing up, my household was very toxic, my parents were always fighting, and I often acted as my mom's "therapist," but she refused to see a real one. When they weren't fighting each other, it was with me that they constantly fought, my grades, my hobbies, my interests, my friends. Everything in the house revolves around her mood and it get exhuasting coming home fearing what the mood will be. Things have gotten better more recently, but I still feel anxious at home. I feel like I can't do anything; anything I do that's productive gets questioned, not productive, also questioned; everything I do needs an explanation, and gets criticized. But now I have a place, and I signed the lease without telling them. I know they just want the best for me. I know this is coming from a place of love. So i feel so guilty for doing this (I havent even moved yet). I know Ill benefit from having a place of my own from being able to have more control over the pace I go through life. But brown girls arent raised to be independent. I know nothing life skill-wise, and I'm so scared something is going ot go wrong and bite me in the butt, and my parents are going to make me feel even worse. They don't know I did this yet, and they are absolutely going to blow up.... so.. any brown girls out there with advice? experience? Anything, i'm definently forgetting a bunch of stuff and i feel like I sound like a spoiled brat by complaining like this but...