u/Iconsumemochi

I know tonight, Jul. 3rd, there’s Red White and Boom. But is there anywhere nearby that’s doing fireworks for the actual 4th ?

Gonna try and word this weirdly to avoid any potential backlash/danger, so bear with me. And no what I’m asking for is NOT ILLEGAL, I’m just not open about this stuff.

Point is I got no health insurance, but I’m doing a bit of a fixer upper on myself and I’m looking for something called “E” that seems quite effective be it Gel, Pill, Patch or Poke(I’m sure you catch my drift by now).
Where are some good local resources to help me get on this cool affirming medicine, so I can start changing the more undesirable parts of my ehhh health. Like are there any like state insurance options things thatll make things easier? Or if I do go without insurance how much can I expect to spend on this sort of stuff? Any help is appreciated and again sorry if my wording is too cryptic, I’m really trying to play it safe here. If you need you can DM me, if I figure I can trust you that is.

Am I even really trans if I wanna be more feminine but still wanna keep certain male aspects? Like uhh I don’t mind my pp tbh, I don’t think I’d wanna get bottom surgery, but sure like everything else is cool, I wanna dress like pretty and do more girly things without fear, but I mean I still also like dressing guyish and doing guy stuff

And that’s what confuses me like idk, but when I think about it I’ve always felt yknow pretty feminine. And now that I’ve been taking care of myself I’ve wanted to change more and more. And it’s like eating away at me so much, but at the same time it’s like is HRT really for me? Do I really count as trans? But at the same time as that! It’s like uhhh well I feel like I need to go see a doctor immediately, but I’m kinda uninsured, and tbh it’s causing me a lot of distress. I feel like idk. No I think it’s more like I know if I was more feminine and pretty and had less of my undesirable masculine features I’d be happy.