u/Icy-Appointment1102

hello everyone there is something thing that i need to talk about and I need to ket it out of my chest ok so im 15 but I'm genuinely don't know what would become of me because of all of the things that have experienced in my life ok so on September 2022 I got scared by a kid just said he know where I live and I was a little sensitive at the time so I didn't feel well and I threw up that night and I had a virus after that I got SA in 7th grade (im a guy btw) and my friend at the same class was a bit um. Weird he came to my house and MASTERBATATD RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME (not too me ofc) but it was really weird and i myself have a gooning addiction and i did it to REALLY BAD stuff but not like 6 times a Day once a day at the most or two or three times rarely and in 8th grade I saw another person in my class gooning and after all that I never told anyone anything not my parents not my friends and it's killing me and I don't know what would become of me because of so many childhood trauma I'm scared of my future how will my adult life look after all that im scared that this will become worst I'm afraid I would feel worst then I already am.

This has nothing to do with sex education but I don't know where else I can post it. okay so Im 15 and i did things I regret by masterbating no I'm not going to talk about that I already talked about it in another post the thing that I'm about to talk about is not that friendly so if you're kind of sensitive please don't read this.

So like I said I'm 15 and I masturbate sometimes which is normal I know. But that's not the thing I want to talk about

So around 3 months ago i found an art by someone named rainbowwill (i think) he uploaded a video of a 5 year old doing you know what with a monster from a game called the binding of Isaac (which is one of my favorite games of all time but that off topic) I didn't realize it at the time but that was child po*n until today I realize that and I was masturbating to it when i saw it for the first time again I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS CP usually I

was the one that was always feeling bad because of masturbating to the weird stuff but now I had enough. I couldn't blame myself because someone uploaded cp I always blame myself I always thought it was my fault but now I'm taking action i found the artest that was making it and reported him and I saw on his Twitter that people supported this and didn't mind it which is genuinely disgusting to me how can you sit there IN FRONT OF YOUR SCREEN KNOWING THAT THE PERSON WHO YOU ARE TAKING TOO is a creep this is why now I'm searching for people that upload cp and report them people like this shouldn't be posting on the internet.