I'm So Freakin' Nervous Right Now
Back in 1982, when I Discharged from the Army my sister introduced me to her ex boyfriend. She told him that she has an older brother who is an artist, went to an art High School...and that he should check me out. 4 days after I was home, my sister told me to come to her place.
I'm not going to mention his name, or what he did, but we talked. Afterwards, the next day I told him where we you have planned, I'll be your man on the ground running.
One day he came by my place and waited downstairs in the building for me. After leaving the elevator, I jumped down the 3 steps inside the building. I had a boombox in one hand, and main a gesture of flexing my muscles with the other arm... He said hold that pose . Took out a small piece of paper and a pencil... I became the character for a record label. 2 years later, he came to me with an idea.
I told him that I will help him out as best as I can , but I couldn't be a "Starving Artist"...I need to bring in a paycheck every week. And I did help him out. I helped him move his art work. But by this time, I was just beginning my Long Term Goal. Each day I fell into the groove of it.
I worked, and worked. I wanted to get this work business over and done with so I could move on to doing what I've put off because I was working. So when I retired...no savings, no equipment...I was starting with nothing, this was 2022.
I knew what I wanted to do, but I wanted to do something different. In the meantime I found a way to occupy myself until that something came along. I didn't know what it was, but I will know when it does come along. It did 3 days ago.
I spent 1.5 days putting it together with the help of AI. Names and email addresses. Timeline, when to do what. Art work, websites, Social Media... I covered it all. Then something else hit me, came to my attention. "I could also do..." That became Part 2, to be placed into motion the following year. Then I looked at the cost.
Close to 1.1 million dollars. All I needed to know of just one number, the total of it. It was 1.4 million. That was just from.... Nope, I'm not going to mention it. The more I looked at it for the next 2 days, the more nervous I became. Why?
Because this would place me in the Headlights... this will focus on me, it will probably go deep into my background also. Do I care, kind of. Do I regret it, again...kind of. But this Project... It took all I had been thru, went thru...the outcome is THIS! But it comes down to one thing...
My sister's ex boyfriend giving the okay. His signature. It won't cost him a penny, but... If you believe in me like I believed in you when you first started... This isn't for me, it's for you. Its my gift to you.
I already sent the message, just waiting for the reply.