u/IdealHonest2084

For context: I’m 19 years old, a virgin and I didn’t grow up in a religious household. I hope this is the place and safe space that I could ask something about a problem I’ve been having.

I have masturbated before using a pillow (I’m kinda scared to use my fingers) and every time I come close, I stop immediately. I can’t bring myself to let go, because of the mess it’ll cause. And I know I can use a towel, but I’m scared my mom (I don’t live with my dad) will see it.

I feel like something is wrong with me. I don’t even know what to expect: is it as pleasurable as women say it is or is it entirely something else?

Are there any other girls who’ve experienced this as well? Do you have some tips on how to overcome the fear?

For context: I’m 19 years old, a virgin and I didn’t grow up in a religious household. I hope this is the place and safe space that I could ask something about a problem I’ve been having.

I have masturbated before using a pillow (I’m kinda scared to use my fingers) and every time I come close, I stop immediately. I can’t bring myself to let go, because of the mess it’ll cause. And I know I can use a towel, but I’m scared my mom (I don’t live with my dad) will see it.

I feel like something is wrong with me. I don’t even know what to expect: is it as pleasurable as women say it is or is it entirely something else?

Are there any other girls who’ve experienced this as well? Do you have some tips on how to overcome the fear?