I held a good 20h before I relapsed agian and it came when I least expected it I had some good people give me advice on Reddit everything was going fine and I thought for sure I’d never go back but yet I am here typing about my
Relapse for the 3rd time in 2 days I am lost and that is simply it also can I please get UPVOTES to remind me and so that I can keep updating you guys
It’s been 19 hours and so far I’m doing good I have gotten some urges but they faded away as I ignored them I use an app called stopfap on iOS it’s free with some features it’s not an ad but yeah if anyone needs help and so far everything’s going good
I posted I was never going back never going to do this filthy deed is promised to Allah to you guys and to me yet 1h later I do the same exact thing I promised to never do again I am beyond words in how sad , shameful, and disgusted I am truely have no words my addiction has hit the next level and i have to fight this battle this might seem corny but this time I will truly never return to this filth I will update you guys daily
Guys I am DONE doing this I will NEVER do this again the amount of suffering it has caused me is insane the regret the shame it has brought into my life I cannot look into my parants eyes I feel like I am nothing but a failure the max I’ve ever made was 1 week and 3 -4 days but this all ends now I promise me myself and Allah that I will NEVER GO back I will dedicate my energy to god study’s and having a good fun but halal life