u/IifeimitatesIife

i cant figure out if im a sx 5w4 of a sx/sp 5w6. ive looked at the differences between 5w4 and 5w6 over a variety of websites and blogs but i relate to both sides equally, the inward depth of a 5w4 and the extreme caution of a 5w6. i am private spending most of my time in my own world and i value my own individuality alot like a 5w4. but i a spend a shit ton of time analysing and predicting my environment and the people within, im not intentionally private i just only speak if spoken to. i feel different from my piers rather than uncertain but that may just be that im a neurodivergent teen in a social group of neurotypical girls in a small school.

this isnt me being new to enneagrams though ive had alot of time to reflect on myself and grow and now im not sure where i sit with my enneagram. before i wouldve said im a 5w4 but after reviewing it im not really sure its correct, maybe ive been thinking im a 4 because its what i want to be.

Ive got an original 3ds model on the way since my old one chucked the shits and gave up a few weeksago. Im going to jailbreak it but i was wondering how far i can go with the games i can download, i really like silent hill 3 and ive seen people emulate other non-3ds games onto their 3ds. Do you think its possible? i would say im decently experiences with this type of stuff, maybe it would be better to try with my PSP instead though.. itd be sick if i could get it on a 3ds though. SH3's controls kinda suck though so i dont even know if id be able to play properly if i did manage to emulate it

Nowadays most schools have adapted a specific type of teaching that is extremely unfriendly to a huge portion of neurodivergent teenagers. but why?

Why are we learning in such a way that we don't actually learn anything? just memorising, regurgitating onto a test, forgetting and repeating it with the next topic. It isn't stopping every neurodivergent and it also affects neurotypicals just as much but that isn't the point im trying to make, neither is the 'jamming in as much content as fast as possible' excuse. This style of learning has been adopted to supress neurodivergents specifically. Higher ups don't have to worry about neurotypicals because they are easier to manipulate and herd like sheep, but neurodivergents are known for thinking out of the box, the diversity of ideas in different brains produce different kinds of genius that higher ups do not want. They want everyone to go down the same path, live the same lives and contribute nothing to the human race because they want to have control. its painfully obvious they want to keep us in this position, we could totally have flying cars by now, but its most likely why the get rid of people like terry davis, amy eskridge, the dude that discovered how to use water as fuel, the countless people that have cured cancer ETC ETC. maybe not all of those guys are neurodivergent but they are think differently and that is a threat.

Also thats why I think the internet is going in the direction it is, to get neurodivergent teens or just the overall generation of teenagers to be useless. Propaganda is so easy to fall for now, ESPECIALLY through tiktok. The communities online give a fake sense of belonging that the real world doesn't, getting ND teens hooked and away from reality which isn't really a bad thing because the internet can be a great way of expressing those outside the box thoughts But the way the internet is changing is conditioning them into thinking the same way as others while thinking they are different

example:

Alternative fashion is dead, and that is being used to influence teenagers. im not sure how to explain it when your not experiencing it first hand but basically what im saying is its killing individuality to crowd people into groups to be predicted and manipulated. being alternative seems like being yourself but it isn't.. anymore (not applying to all people but yk what I mean in this context??). so you think you are thinking outside of the box but you aren't, because your following the opinion of someone that looks different but in reality their opinion isn't different at all, they are copying someone else. Everyone wants to be different but they all end up with the same opinion because of the internet, so now everyone's fallen into a categories that is easily controlled and this is relevent to ND's because they think they are special within these spaces when they arent, they are just being trained to think the same as these groups

Im trying to say a dead community is being used to control the newer generation because it makes them feel special and its supressing ND people because now NT people are crouding the space and being seagulls to whatever they have to say, so no one is original and they croud together to be easily catagorised. but that whole catagorising thing is another one of my theories for control, using things like the internet and social norms to separate people into groups to monitor and predict easier but that's kinda irrelevant.

To summarise this whole thing im whining about being supressed because whoever in control is afraid that those who think differently (neurodivergents) are a threat to their control. They don't want us to invent new things or make new discoveries. Trying to turn us into sheep via the interent

These are just things ive thought about as a teenager though. Watching as my friends and classmates fall into catagories that make them easy to predict, it makes me feel like Will Graham lol

Okay im not sure any of this makes sense