u/Iktaraspeaks

I've only completed 55% of my syllabus till date. I think im doing not enough. Whenever i try to sleep i definitely think that i didnt do enough today. I'm never satisfied by what i do. Whenever relatives call they ask bout my studies, today my nani called me and asked me if i study or not, she also said if i dont study i wont get out of my hometown blah blah,sometimes my mama ji calls me and he says such things that makes me feel like i'm 0 and i crashout whenever i talk to him, i'm really tired of answering everybody.I also fear that I'm behind everyone:(

My goal was to finish syllabus by the end of sep, sadly could not do it.

Also, what is ideal time to complete ur syllabus? How to not stress over such silly things?

So, few moths back i saw this guy randomly in the market, i found him really good looking.

Later on i got to know that hes junior to me (1 class) different school.ig we are same age.

He also scored good in his 10th, he is currently in 11th grade and Im in 12th grade. He used to study in the tution which i study rn in.

Recently i saw him at a puja near my house on two different days,we made eye contact too, i was like how cute he is, then i realised im attracted to him. He seems to be lil sankari as he always put tilak on his head. I searched for his name on ig and found his insta but im not sure if i should approach him or not. He doesnt follow girls. I really like him a lot.

Last year i found a commited guy attractive ( i didn't know he was commited) hope it doesnt happen again.

So, i fear that this guy( that i currently like) might be commited also or maybe likes somebody else.Im even senior to him. His home is in the market i think that he knows many people from my previous school n all, if i approach him everyone will eventually get to know about it( including my ex)