I feel like im losing my faith
I've been going through these attacks 2 years now, so much so that my legs are destroyed. I keep feeling something inside me, I dont know of its in my soul but I feel it and I'm constantly told its in my mind. But this thing moves in my body, grips my head, when I go out it feels like it puts a mask over my face to the point where I feel like I'll faint, or I am tortured in my private areas. I know i've been told when I am delivered my mom will come and take me to the occults but I dont remember, so im going through repeated cycles of deliverance, she married me spritually and created a soultie with me, i believe she wants to take over my body. Yet nobody believes me when I say something is in me. I feel rejected, unheard, I feel like life is not worth it, and i feel like there's a lack of love and understanding in the christian community, I was rejected and ignored by the first church I went to, when I was on the point of death and confusion during my deliverance, and I keep asking God why? And wonder if he's left me too. I feel utterly alone and depressed, and I feel like life isn't worth it and I'm on verge of giving up