r/Deliverance

Please pray for my deliverance from this. Since 2020 I've been suffering from invisible beings attempting to have sex with me. Reading pslams weakens these encounters but I can't stop them alone

I’ve been to prophetic ministries, deliverance ministries, they are all equally unhelpful but they were very much damaging to my life,

I still struggle with Attacks from the enemy, and I am as broken as ever, I wish I never became a charismatic Christian.

And while it’s been a long walk with the Lord I’ve never really been transformed, I beared more of the fruits of the spirit when i first came to God, But now at all pain of things seemingly never going right, This pain of God never showing up and bringing any meaning to my life, and just letting me be attacked by the enemy constantly even if I was faithful to rebuke the darkness,
It’s been so long ever since I felt at peace with God, I at this point can’t truly believe God cares for me, I don’t feel safe, I see these prophetic Christian’s propose God as if they’re in an abusive relationship, I miss fellowshipping with God, it hurts so much to pray because I feel so disappointed in God, he doesn’t comfort nor does God protect, I can’t see him as trustworthy, He plunged me into the very depths of Satan and my soul refuses to be healed, there is so much pride in me and I want it to go away, I feel so blind and arrogant and I want to die, why cant I live with the joyful companionship with God, why can’t I be transformed right now, why can’t he take away my depression right now, and give me life, why can’t he give me new desires, why do I have to be so fearful and ashamed.

Demons have attacked me throughout my lifetime. I had a point in my life that I was so distressed that I did not eat anything. I was so sick afterward and it didn't go away for many years. These demons demand I starve but I really dont want to anymore. Ive tried fasting before and felt nauseated and sick with a migraine after a day. The longest I've gone is a almost three day water fast. Am I the worst person ever for not starving myself?

Before anyone jumps at me about what kind of work needs to be done to be delivered, I understand and do the work. I’ve read books and done plenty of research for a year now dealing with this. I repented for everything I can think of, don’t sin as well as I can, and continue to renounced everything I can, and continue to practice faith and surrender pretty much all day everyday. I’ve done the work, I pray daily quite often and more. I’m not looking to this as a simple way out.
I am being baptized soon and am just wondering because of the strength of the sacrament, if anyone has been delivered from possession or oppression or both after being baptized. I just don’t expect it to be a quiet peaceful experience for me, since I’ve had manifestations for a year and do daily.
I have received the Holy Spirit in church and I had an extreme manifestation from that, so I’m just wondering.

I woke up seeing a very strange dream today. I was in a Christian Event and with me there were many others as well. Out of them all, one lady was a agent of Satan. But her body language and vocabulary matched of a Born Again Christian perfectly. No one from her outer appearance can tell that she belongs to the enemy...... I however saw that when she spoke, her tongue was a serpant tongue. Only I saw that and it was NOT noticed by anyone else.

When I woke up I got a feeling that this is the current scenario of the Churches today. So many agents of the enemy has perfectly mingled with the Chosen sheeps that it is very hard to see the difference from outside. You need a Anointing of Decernment to spot them. It is a warning to the Churches and to you. Be discerned and Beware of such Wolfes in Sheep's clothing.