u/Illustrious-Crew5174

I 22f have been married 2 years to my husband 29m
He has never been a super affectionate person but he tells me he loves me, I want more so I told him yesterday. This is what he sent me today at work

I love you for a thousand reasons, but the deepest is that my heart feels at home in you. You are the dream I never want to wake up from, the prayer I never knew how to ask for, and the blessing I will never stop being grateful for.
If life gave me everything but you, I would still feel poor. But if I had you and nothing else, I would still feel like the luckiest man alive.
You are the woman I want beside me in every chapter of my life, the last face I want to see at night, and the first person I want to hold in the morning.
And when my time on this earth is over, I hope my very last thought is of you, because loving you has been the most beautiful thing my heart has ever done.
You are not just my forever, sweetheart. You are the reason forever will never feel long enough.

I got so emotional reading it at work, I never knew this much, I going to jump on him tonight no sleep tonight😜

27m have erection issues since using a penis stretcher 2 years ago once. Cause my penis to go numb and turtle up, soft glans, no more morning erections penis less sensitive. Like a disconnect feeling from penis, bad erection quality, also loose my erection when I’m laying down. Before my penis used to bounce when erect haven’t had that since the stretcher.

Suffered for months then went and got shockwave therapy and the next day amazing. Rock hard erections glans filled fully. Penis what very sensitive. Even thoughts got me erect. Was having random erections, morning erections, also my penis looked much bigger both erect and flaccid no more position dependant erections.But I noticed that when I masturbation each time my erection quality would go down, after about the third time Masturbation I was back at baseline. I did 11 shockwave sessions, for 11 weeks once a week each time same result after masturbation in between the sessions

I tried stretching pelvic floor for 2 weeks don’t feel anything in pelvic floor can’t feel my pelvic floor loosing, don’t feel knots or anything so I stopped. Sometimes after sitting for walking I my perineum feels tender. Also when flaccid can’t get my penis to bounce when I kegel. I pee fine ejaculate fine just can’t do it forcefully.

So current status
Rare morning erections. If any but loose quickly as soon as I wake up. Feels feels smaller and tighter when erect. Spongy and small and retracted when soft. Soft glans when erect also glans look smaller when flaccid. Position dependant ed loose when laying down. Less sensitive. When erect and standing and I reverse kegel my glans fill more and erections gets harder but stops as soon as I stop reverse kegeling. Also my penis doesn’t bounce anymore when erection

Help