I’ve been dissociating for the past couple of days. I can’t feel my body well and I don’t feel real, as if I’m in VR. I’ve tried everything. I can’t focus on studies, I can’t tell if things are real, and it’s really affecting my grades. multiple of my teachers have stopped to ask me questions about what’s going on. what do I do? how do I get out? pain doesn’t help.
I’ve been struggling with back pain for the past two years. everyday, when I’m waking up or just sitting, my back aches. once a month it’ll absolutely cripple me and pain just shoot’s up my back for around half an hour, so intensely that I struggle to breathe. I get really bad knots and kinks near my shoulders and traps, even though I stay very active and roll out my back everyday + stretching. tigerbalm kinda masks it sometimes but not for long. ibuprofen doesn’t work. I do jiujitsu and have sometimes been thrown into a column/wall into the middle of the studio and then hit my tailbone really hard, and whenever I sit up or stand it hurts. When I’m rolling with an opponent it feels like it’s grating against my flesh And the floor.
also, unrelated, but when I’m walking and my gait is moderate to large, where my femur and pelvis connect has a very sharp pain w each step (near the groin, not the hip.)
I’m really scared rn and idk what to do everything looks really weird and I can’t explain it I don’t look normal something’s wrong with my face I’m not me my body is not mine. the way my chest moves when I breathe is weird I can’t recognize what’s in the mirror I have no idea what’s happening right now please please help me just someone talk please I can’t understand anything