u/ImHavingaWeirdDay

I'm in my mid 30s and my partner has given me permission to see if I am actually bi, or if its just something of a fantasy. The thing is even with permission I don't really know where to even meet someone, or how to go about it. Almost all of the women I've been with have persued me and I'm more on the shy side so trying to find a partner to even test things out with isnt something I know how to do.

I was hoping other people might be able to point me in the right direction on how to proceed, or how to find a gay/bi partner to experiment with if I'm not looking to really date.

I'm in my mid 30s and I've never been with a guy before, but my wife and I tend to try and explore new things and be open with one another. A year ago that took us into the realm of pegging and playing with toys and I realized that I was enjoying the things that went along with that and started watching pegging porn, but realized it is largely pretty terrible and S&M focused.

Eventually I got more into bi and gay porn, and I'm almost exclusively watching it now, and as I don't hide anything from my partner she suggested that I explore that side of myself to see if there is anything there so long as I'm careful and use protection.

Tbh, I don't even know where to start, I've always been pretty shy, but I am curious. Any advice would be appreciated.