Sorry I disappeared for so many days in a row! I was on a trip to go to a wedding and I just didn't feel very secure where I was staying and it made me forget to post because I post at night and at night was when I was feeling yicky and stressed.
But I am home now! And my good news is that I brushed my teeth every single day of my trip! And a few days before and even today and that's over a week.
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A bit later than usual tonight but I had to fly somewhere tonight. I'm visiting my spouse's hometown to go to a wedding. My good news is that I was able to listen to music and ignore everyone around me and not panic very much at all. :3
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I've been having a really hard time lately but... I persist. My good news is that I was able to hangout with some friends online today.
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We just got out of our MID assessment because we never actually did one. We've been diagnosed with DID for a year now based on observation and discussion or something. I kept putting off the assessment because we had to do it in person and I don't like to leave the house if I can help it, I hate driving, and I'd have to take the day off for the assessment because of when time of day the assessment has to be. So I didn't want to do it. Well, I finally did it. We were going over the results and they really upset me.
Like, sure, I can be a little attention seeking I admit; I like attention! Who doesn't? But then they said I had a high fictitious score—I make things up or exaggerate a lot apparently? No I don't! But apparently the test came back and said I do. I wasn't present for the entire test, so I don't know what was said when I wasn't there but we don't lie and we rarely exaggerate. And then, even worse we scored high on manipulation. Manipulation! We don't manipulate people. The psychologist said that there can be manipulation without malintent but that's bullshit too.
All I try to do is be kind and uplifting and now I'm being called a liar and a manipulator. It's not fair. Everyone says I'm a good and kind person but now my therapist is saying I'm a liar.
And these AP are poisoning us and nobody will listen to me. They are making our communication worse. I feel like I'm suffocating just trying to exist sometimes. And I've been present a lot less after we changed medication. I understand that they keep us from wanting to physically hurt ourselves and see hallucinate less but we never actually hurt ourselves and the hallucinations were annoying us not harming us. Isn't the side effect of poor communication much worse than what is being treated? Why won't anyone take my side on this? A long time ago, we made an agreement to listen to our doctors but I feel like they aren't listening to me and aren't taking me seriously. I feel like I'm crazy or I'm sane and everyone else is crazy.
What am I supposed to do? I'm going for a walk to try to clear my head.
I feel like I'm going to die.
Today my good news is that I brushed my teeth again! I have second piece of good news that I had a lot of fun playing a game with some friends.
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My good news is that I brushed my teeth! I know, sort of pathetic but brushing my teeth makes me nauseous and I hate doing it. But I did it! I've been avoiding it the last couple of days but I can feel that I'm going to get back into it. It's OK to praise me. :3
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My good news for the day is that I took a nap!
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Yesterday I had such a good day at the Spa and I forgot to write my good news post after dinner. Sorry!
Today my good news is that I'm enjoying Tomodachi Life so much! Work is going alright too, but I rarely have enough to do still. This is my last week at my current job and then I move into a new one right after. I'm getting a bit scared. New things are so scary. I used to do app development for a living but I haven't done it in 5 years, so I am nervous to get back into it.
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My spouse has taken me to a hotel with a spa and tomorrow we are going to the spa! My good news is that I worked on my Spotify Playlist today and I like it even better now!
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My good news for the day is that I was productive at work today. After days of having all of my work blocked by other teams and having little to nothing to do all day, I actually had several hours of work to do today! Weird good news I know but it's good news to me.
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I've been playing Tomodachi Life all day after work and having so much fun. My good news is that I got my spouse to share some of their Miis and now I have a cute little group of people living on my island. That's sort of a silly piece of good news and not everyone is going to understand what I'm talking about but... I'm having fun playing a video game, hehehe.
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My spouse and I really enjoyed them playing tomodachi life again. My good news is that I went for it and bought the game too! I'll play it starting tomorrow. ;3 Yay.
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