Day 10 of CT here. Since maybe day 4, I seem to be alternating days of being ok. One day, fine the entire 24 hours with no break. Next day, mentally and physically low for 24 hours, no break. So on, so forth. Perfectly rotating. Since yesterday, I've been depressed, unmotivated, somehow numb as well, and feel like my body weighs 1000 lbs. Didn't really expect 2 terrible entire days back to back. I expected ups and downs, bad days with some relief for maybe a few hours. Good and bad moments. But my experience seems to be unique in that it's just entire days. I also don't recognize my hands and body? I know it's my hands and body, but it doesn't _feel_ like it. Just sick of feeling so out of it for 2 whole days with not even a few minutes of something decent. I've done the usual, dragged myself outside quite a bit, very well hydrated, appetite has come back full force, keeping up vitimins to help. Also, haven't had issues sleeping since day 3...but RLS somehow came back last night and kept me up for a few hours. I've been so proud of myself, but this has been so discouraging. I wasn't even depressed for days straight like this during the acutes. I asked my therapist if this could already be PAWS, she said it's impossible because it's too early. Not sure why I feel like I'm just declining only at the 10 day, not even 2 week mark.
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Hi all. So for 6 years, I've been on a daily 10-15 gram kratom dose. My flares were only when I'd eat something spicy, and manageable. The issue..Kratom was not good for me anymore. I was developing an addiction, and a host of negative side effects from it health and mood wise. So I made the decion to break free, and I quit cold turkey 7 days ago. Probably one of the most difficult things I've done, and I'm so proud of myself. However...I'm mentally wrecked. This entire week, maybe with 2 total days of relief, I have had a painful flare up. I do NOT want to get back on it. But that part of my brain is terrified that the kratom was keeping me stable, and I'm in for a lifetime of pain and misery. I can't seem to find any info on this specifically, which doesn't help with my current mental state. It might be a longshot, but I wanted to ask if any of you have had a bad period of a flare up after instantly quitting a substance. A prescription opioid, or possibly kratom. I just hope that I'm not alone, and I didn't just doom myself while trying to do what was best.
Hey all. So I am on day 5 of CT.
It's been pretty bad, but I could feel the acutes slowing up around day 4. Unfortunately, that's also when diarrhea armageddon started. Since yesterday morning, every single thing I eat runs through me. Damn near immediately. My mom said to try the BRATS diet. Guess what? Rice, banana, it all runs through the same as a slice of pizza. Makes ZERO difference. I desperately need the nutrients, but it's all just dumping apparently. My anxiety over this has increased 10 fold. I'm trying to stay well hydrated, but I'm actually getting worried because how can I keep up with the amount of fluids I'm loosing? I'm SO afraid to eat a single food item, now. And because of the kratom use, I'm already at a low weight for my height. 109lb 5'4 guy. I can't afford to drop 10 lbs from this. I'm also really afraid to take immodium, because I see all of the warnings, and the LAST THING I would ever want to do is set my withdrawal back to day 1 because something behaved as another opioid in my brain. I am NEVER going back to that shit, and I don't want any meds that will take me back there either. I'm kind of panicking, because I'm scared this is going to land me in the hospital or kill me. I guess I needed a vent, some comfort, I don't know. This has just been a terrifying experience. Had no idea that poop would be the part of withdrawal that tests my sanity.