u/Imaginary_Market_497

So I have been in and out of the public school system and the last time I went out was because they wanted to make me restart refreshment year, and I was supposed to be going into my sophomore year and the program I was using apparently was not recognized by the state of Connecticut so that is why they wanted to restart me as a freshman, even though I had a freshman credits from when I had attended the school for my freshman year. Now I am moving most likely and I would truly like a chance of going back to school. I want to be able to walk the stage, I wanna go to prom, I want to experience senior sunrise and lock ins. I wanna have these memories that most teens get to experience. But I’m scared I won’t be able to and that’s because I have switched to Khan Academy. for the most part for me. Khan Academy has been great, but I’m scared that if I do try to go back that it won’t be accepted my last program I was told that it was an accredited program and that I would be able to use it when I went back and obviously it didn’t work and that’s why I’m out of school so this time before I even try and go back I don’t wanna embarrass myself by trying so that’s why I’m asking if anyone has transferred using their “credit“ where you put at the level where you were supposed to be? I couldn’t find anywhere else that made sense to post this question and I’m not sure if many people have been through this but if you have, I would truly appreciate a response and thank you for the people that took the time to read this and respond to me.

Lately I’ve been afraid that I am spiritually dead or at least heading in that direction. I still go to church 3 times a week, I still worship and I still believe God is real whole heartedly. But ever since I’ve started fighting with some difficult questions about my faith I’ve found it incredibly hard to pick up my Bible or pray.

The hardest part is that I don’t want to feel this way. I genuinely want to grow closer to God but it’s like something is holding me back. Reading Scripture and praying used to come so naturally and now I struggle to do either. Sometimes during worship I cry, but i don’t believe it’s because I feel God’s presence but it’s because I miss feeling close to Him.

When I pray it often feels like I don’t hear anything. I know God doesn’t always answer in the ways or timing we expect, and I know “not yet” is sometimes His answer. But if I’m being honest it’s hard. I’m not angry at God I just feel distant from Him and I don’t know what to do.

For those who have gone through a season like this, how did you get through it? Is this what people mean by being spiritually dead, or is it something different? If you’ve been through something similar, what helped you draw close to God again? I’d really appreciate biblical advice and prayer.