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Anyone know how to navigate this feeling? I’m an eighth house Pisces sun, moon, and mercury. Nothing good in my life has ever lasted, it has always painfully left.

I’ve developed this habit of always bracing for impact, anticipating an ending, something or someone to leave my life, loss of money, friends, opportunities, etc. I hate this feeling so much. How do you guys enjoy life??

I consciously know to stay in the present and just enjoy life as it is, but then I hit a wall. I guess what triggered this is my current dating experience. I’ve been seeing a guy I think I really like, and I’m just waiting until he leaves or ghosts or whatever. I’m hyper analyzing every date, text, interaction because I’m looking for patterns and thinking “maybe this is the last time”. Ugh it’s so exhausting.

Thank you guys for listening to me vent lol.

Hi guys,

So I’m somewhat newly diagnosed with gshv1, about 4 months now. I’m starting to get back out there with dating, and I met this guy about a month ago. He’s super sweet, caring, and didn’t have a problem when I disclosed.

He’s not freaking out, but I am. I decided to start taking daily suppressants a week before we were gonna have sex. Even though I took my valtrex, used a condom, and made sure I didn’t have any symptoms, I’m still terrified of the chances.

I guess no one here can give me a probability rate of transmission, but I just wanted to come on here and vent. I would hate to pass this to him or anyone else. Gosh it makes me never want to have sex again, I feel like this was a mistake even though I took precautions and disclosed. The anxiety I feel is not worth it.

Thank you guys for reading x.