u/Immediate_Most_9323

I am young,but have major deppresive disorder which is honeysly disruptiving my life and causing me worse things. I did therapy for years, TMS didn’t work, ketamine made me go nuts snd hallucinate and it was horrible for me.

i am terrified of being inpatient after seeing things and I think ECT may be my best chance at a new life.

i already have chronic pain and hypermobility and so much more and iy puts me down even more.

i lie to my doctors as im scared of inpatient as I’ve seen what they do at the one closes to me.

plus in my state we have all the worst inpatients I would say.

i want to be productive especially since I am getting a service dog in 2 years or so for medical,mobility and psychiatric needs.

Thanks to whoever gives advise.

I am trying to get funds for a service dog but sadly I don’t have the money to afford it as my family is low income and one of my siblings insurance doesn’t cover stuff. (we are all adopted)

I have suffered for years now with constant stress about college. I am creeping up really fast on my old service dog being retired so I am trying to get a new one in 2 years which is the programs waitlist.

I can send proof that I am in the program and am working with them.

prayers and thoughts also help as I know god is helping me.

please share if you can as I’m trying my best also by taking on more jobs like bathing and grooming dogs for extra money.